gosh,back

gosh i think i almost forgot I have this stupid blog
stop blogging for many months
yea,I am having my so called holidays,happy but EXAM is jz around the corner !
No study mood
Hang around ,eat around,play around[but i dont sleep around XD ]wakaka
lame
I need some motivation
sem2 is coming soon
wowowow
so fast
=2010=

friend or friends?

eww,I'm back
2 weeks after started my Uni life
everything is ok
well,somehow,kee cynn said that I'm antisocial
I have think about it
should i change it or just continue to be like this?

I try to figure out whether I'm really antisocial or whatever
and I found out that
perhaps I am[a little bit]
in another words=selective
friend or friends?

fine,we get to know many friends
we are happy about that
BUT
do they called FRIEND?

For 2 weeks
I get to know 4 or 5friends[which I consider as FRIENDS]
others,I know their names,I can recognize their face
chat,joke,say hi and bye
AND NOTHING ELSE

I ask myself
if I'm in trouble,apart from keecynn that I familiar vf
for those 4 girls that I know recently,will they help me?
my answer is YES
and they did show me they can really help me
which I called it as sincerely
which u find that u will feel comfortable to b with them
u can trust them

AND ITS REALLY HARD TO FIND THIS TYPE OF FRIENDS
I'm lucky

so?
I will get to know all my classmates as time goes on
we will get to understand each other better------>good friends
I will not attempt to know all of them in a short period
everything ned time 2 proceed
it is no point for me to know many ppl
apart from I know their names,and they know my name
which most of them u couldnt rely on

so
I conclude that I'm sociable
I have ability to communicate with many ppl
I have developed a good communication skill
[i can communicate with dif types of ppl if I want]
[including my own weird housemate]
just that,depends on what I want to do

I'm happy
yea
all my housemates are friendly and funny
my classmates are generally ok

gtg
bye

miss

sleeping~

looked so childish= =lol

hahahahaha,this1 nice^.^me,mw and sabrina in our classroom

ghost= =[2008]

after our pps gathering...cheer!

i miss all of you
although we are apart from each other
yea
i wont cry dy
hahaha

Our lives will be different and new;
We’re going out into the world,
Our goals and dreams to pursue.
But one thing will never, ever change,
As we go our separate ways;
The friends we’ve made in school will be
Our friends for all our days.
The special ties and attachments we’ve made,
These bonds will never be broken;
We’ll continue to feel that special bond,
Your friendship means a lot to me
And it will never end.

boring[BLOG ABOUT KEECYN]

i admit that now i am aimless.
wake up--->eat--->online--->eat--->tv--->sleep--->eat---????
these days are torturing me heading to hell !!
i wish i can study!anything!but still i prefer this kind of 'aimless' life.
if u have too much of free time,u will THINK too much
He called.surprisingly!
He abruptly ends the call and I'm left with the phone receiver in my hand realizing
we're like two sides of a train track,comfortable with in our parallel existence.
that is good!we don't intersect!
sometimes we have to make things clear so that it won't become complicated.

i want to hang out with my friends
but what to do?
they have to attend classes,some of them stay too far..
i don't really know what i wish for?
happiness?money?love?caring?
perhaps
and i know some1[keecynn]will definitely think that i am desperate
i don't want to bother her [ha ha]
lets talk about keecynn
she is an emotional roller-coaster,although she claims that she is optimist
but i still think that she need a couch and a psychologist with a good threshold for pain.
i am the1 who always lecturing her about the 'move on with your life'theory
[i am such a good friend!]
sometimes,friends need to collide!
you need to crash and make an impact to feel your friendship is alive,
and we did!!!we quarrel most of the time,for silly things like [definition of black bf?]
i think she will be excited once i post this,
but don't get me wrong,i am just tooo boring and so i decided to blog about rubbish.
Perhaps she is waiting for my COMPLIMENTS,haiz..




BORED

good luck!my sister

my sis is going to johor tomorrow.
yeah,i can use her guitar non-stop!
haha
CBN school choir
as they won for the state level[champion],
they are going for the national competition,
which will be held at JOHOR


surprisingly
they sing [MAN IN MIRROR]by MJ
last year,they went on to become the national choir champions for 2008 at the Malaysia Secondary School National Champion Choir 2008
i hope they can win this competition[2009] to get the ticket for international choir competition.

My sister and her friends are practicing so hard .
[after school hours, during school hours, holidays etc.]
sometimes i feel guilty because i am the one who force her go CBN!
Fortunately,
my sister told me that Life in CBN was always varied with special customs and heritages - not always about exams and books.That is the specialness of being a CBNer - [we are proud of where we come from and are particular on winning. This is not the exception, it is the rule. The headmistress, teachers and all the girls knew it -whether in athletics, volleyball, in the SPM, PMR or STPM exams, cheerleading, choir, choral speaking etc]
now i think i did a right thing for my sister.


gambateh!

redang trip

memorable moment
u and me
haiz
i sense something weird in myself
i am missing all of you already

perhaps a friend is like a ghost,
whose spirit never dies.
A friend is like a heart that goes
strong until the end.
Where would we be in this world
if we didn't have a friend.

its really sad that it had to be this way,
but it has reached its very last day.
miles away cant keep us apart,
'cause you'll always be in my heart.


=memory=

sabrina n me




i have no idea what is happening?
hehe
hot guys!hahahaha[lie]
mentally cacat










=1st episode=

farewell party!!!!syok

hahaha!!!!
after our LAST PAPER!!!!
NO EXAM WEI!!!!


U GUESS WAT!!!
KEE CYNN BROKE JINni's door
we laugh like hell
how come she has to lock all doors before she go for bath
weird!!!!!!
lock toilet's door enough la

buhari HOT
hahahahahahaha

feel so harmony
right????

stupid kee cynn!!!!
REMEMBER DNT SLEEP BSIDE HER!!
NO MATTER WHAT

goodbye my friends
sad neh
farewell party at jinni's house
fun+syok=tired
BBQ,steambot.......


ACTUALLY,i lazy to write much
hahahaha



THE END

funny things,about my mom n bro

hehe,my stupid bro,n [innocent]mom
dunno how to describe them...
we will fight for many things,haha.
so,life is boring without fight

ugly dy.

camhore lelelelele
tis is my 1st time
i took pic vf my mom
FIRST TIME

tis1 oso very ugly


tis1 damn lame
wat to do
i am lame
so my bro inherited tis mutated gene lol


ps:my mom....dunno how to use DVD player,radio,handphone.LOL
MY BRO,he oli knows how to eat.si fatty



i realize life is the things that u think of
input=output
everything mz b balanced,mz b in equilibrium
wealth cant buy everythings
we need love,frenship,bf,gf,neighbours,everythings!

朋友的定义

那么点丁的失望
朋友的定义，随着大家成长，变得模糊不清了。
是世界在变，还是人？


突然想念起中学时期
那些纯真的友谊
那种可以让人掉泪的深厚感情
那种可以放心的依靠身边的人
那种不会去和你计较他失去多少利益的朋友


真实的友谊，真的很难的。
然而，它是建立在什么情况下呢？
开始接触到社会的另一面，
开始讨厌社会的这一面


自从高中毕业以来，所接触的朋友，都和中学时期的大大不同。
大家都以自己为中心，
大家都很在乎，都很怕自己被占便宜
同时却一味的去占人家的便宜
而不少人是看外表，家世，成绩等等去衡量每一个人
认真为友谊付出，而某些人却不会因此而珍惜。
当人长大，就渐渐被社会原理牵着鼻子走，变成典型的社会人。


我不是说我逆着社会的脚步
只是，至少我做回我自己
我粗鲁，我就让人家看到粗鲁的我，哪怕他们会不喜欢，因为这就是我
打开心房并非每一个人做到



所有的事情
都源于不信任
你为了什么而去相信一位朋友？
你为了什么不去相信一位朋友？


那天
眼泪掉出来的那天
才发现自己好傻
几年来自己完全没有变过
朋友在自己心目中还是那么的重要
当你知道你做的一切，他们都当做废的，那时的心情可想而知
我讨厌虚伪的世界，虚伪的社会
知道自己很天真，还是想回到中学那段日子。


朋友的定义
到底是什么？？
无论在哪里，我们的友谊不曾贬值
朋友是从心做起
问问你自己，你做到了吗？


伤心的时候来找你的朋友很多
你伤心，他来找你的朋友，却不多。

他需要倾诉的时候来找你的朋友也很多
愿意倾听他人的朋友却不多


希望
友谊不会随着年龄的增长而变质

i love all of you

crazy~~

my bio lecturer=mr jaya=

after math class

friendship forever

hahahahahaha

omg!!!!!whole class wei...and choon kiat did smile!!

last day of college

no time to post dy= =

this is part 1

hmmm,i will be back soon

take care ,guys~

miss all of you

kee cynn want suicide

[MSN]
KEECYNN N ME

Keecynn is so =.= eat. sleep. says:

if u see me commit suicide, u have to tell the rest that it's not because of studying and stress and stuffs like that, but TOO BORING

no no no,u wont know me says:
omg

no no no,u wont know me says:
hahahahahahahahahhahahaha

Keecynn is so =.= eat. sleep. says:
i need excitements!!!!

no no no,u wont know me says:
n the newspaper headline

Keecynn is so =.= eat. sleep. says:
seriously, u have to help me chen ching

no no no,u wont know me says:
[gurl suicide bcz of no entertainment]\

Keecynn is so =.= eat. sleep. says:
HAHAHAAHAHA

Keecynn is so =.= eat. sleep. says:
life's just too plain


Keecynn is so =.= eat. sleep. says:
and i cant live this kinda life


guys!!!
keecynn want to suicide
plz encourage her
PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE

I CANT TAHAN HER ADY
HAHAHAHHAHAHA

i am back,crazy !!!

oh ya,my lovely doggy!!!!
i love u so much puppy!!!!
miss u....
cute,right????



this1 speechless..huhu
my brothers....
me...acting stupid...
but quite fun=.=lol



although i looked ugly here...but i like this picture lol
we took a lot pic tat day..
and my elder bro(middle) looked very [baby][he is 13]!



this1!
wow
i like
bell n bitchcent ,,,hehehehe

exam exam exam

exam axam uxam ixam oxam!!!
waiting for biology paper 1
damn boring
.......


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lalalalalalalalalal
lalalalalalalalalala

喜欢，心灵成长

我是个喜欢观察心灵成长的人
心灵成长是个很美妙的过程
透视它，你会知道更多



最近
小弟被颁发班上的模范生
无意中发现自己无意识的在培养自己10岁的弟弟
有了小成果
观察着他的心灵成长


小孩就像一张白纸
你给他什么资讯，他就是怎样的图画
因为发现他是可造之才，可以成大器
既然父母不能扮演这角色，那就由我来扮演
也透过这个试验，看看我所认知的[道理]是否正确


我把培育他的地方分为3部分
性格，思维，处事
从他小的时候，就开始灌输他正确的人生观
至于学习，只要你灌输小孩正确的观念，那在他成长的路上，你就不用督促他[做功课]了
就算你逼着他读书，或许效果可能不错，但，这效果是暂时性的
因为他不知道为了什么读书
不要告诉他，读书是为了赚钱
虽然这是事实，但太早把这观念输入他们脑里是很不正确的



很明显的，我父母并没有好好地培育我这正确的观念，
庆幸的是我自己找到了这道理，虽然迟了点，我比别人起步慢，所以并不会很出色
而很明显的，当我向弟弟实行这试验，成功率达100%
功课，考试，在他脑里有很正确的观念
所以学业这方面就不让人操心
他变成我们4兄弟姐妹成绩最棒的[只因曾经我向他说[你要成为家里的骄傲]]
还记得他是他才5岁。。我知道他牢记到现在
他知道这是他的责任，
他知道每一个阶段有他必须负的责任
当他肯对学业负责任
那代表他学会履行责任
那将来有50%他是对 工作，感情，承诺 负责任的男人



接下来就是要让他面对自己的缺点
让他知道自己的不足
让他去思考如何面对
让他去想象人生是怎样
不要以他还小为借口，启发他的思维是很重要的
可能是长久无意识的培养
他的思考能力比同龄人高出一等
也开始懂得谅解他人，学会迁就，原谅他人
他可以谅解为什么妈妈会脾气不好
他可以谅解为什么父母为什么要吵架
他可以谅解为什么自己的父母不比别人的父母那样关心自己的孩子
为了让妈妈的心情好，他们就会努力的做家事，分担妈妈的担子
我要向他们学习呢。
兄弟姐妹，就是要互相学习
我虽然是大姐，但是从他身上，我学到很多



小时候的处境，让我们得不到父母的关心，有父母等于没有父母
回忆起我7，8岁时候，我们不是轮流当出气筒，就是人家的笑柄
那种被人看不起的感觉
那种渴望父母带我们回家，那种渴望家有家的感觉
体验过穷的味道，体验过人生的转折
那种肉体和精神的折磨
雨过天晴后
大弟变成异常的成熟，妹妹变成很独立
只要可以经得起考验，那将来的路，就会好走了
有一度曾经变坏的我，现在回头看，只有傻笑的份


成功，是当你跌倒了，你可以在站起来的时候

如果寂寞有个指数
那一定是奇数

你要好好读书，不要浪费钱

这是他对我说过，最深刻的话




接下来培养他的地方
就是要让他知道
凡事要靠自己
没有家人，没有朋友的时候，他该怎么活下去
这都要靠一点一滴的生活经验开始
如何自己做家事
如何自己完成自己能力以内的事
让他有自己正确的态度去完成事情
[虽然这点我办不到]但我却让他办到了，悲哀
让他上台比赛演讲，上台辩论会，靠自己的能力，赢得掌声
家里只有我没有演讲这才能，其实我都以他们为骄傲




虽然他有时傻傻的，顽皮的
缺点也一大堆。。
数不清。。
因为父母的溺爱
造就了他有时固执的性格
常让我很头痛..
和哥哥打架，吵架。。。没完没了
现在阶段来说，他算不错了
玩乐的时候还是该玩乐



为了他将来
帮他报考新加坡的中学
询问他的时候
看着他眼神凝望着未来
他在想什么呢




看着他长大
是件很快乐的事
希望他快快乐乐的长大
成为一个有用的人
灿烂的人生
真诚的祝福



我们一起努力吧

Emo,but i look happy

its scary right?


i feel emo


but they said i looked so happy


how come ??





life is complicated ?


cz we are greedy


we want easy life,happy life,romantic life


we want everything without go through any obstacles


sm1 want perfect guy[keecynn] which is quite impossible











i feel exhauted


for no reason

for everythings



speechless

i los my direction

i am trying to analyse who am i

dude!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

its hurt

hmmmm
its hurt
painful...
arhhhhh
who can help me.....



initially i thought it was just a [stupid little wound]
and i kinda ignored it
BUT
IT GETTING WORST AND WORST
I CANT EVEN STAND FOR A LONG TIME
inflammation...
i think...